"I AM RESOURCED."
What a gift to be able to share this with people as I share the not so pleasant news I got yesterday.
Yesterday, exactly 6 days after an unexpected biopsy, I got the telephone call from the dermatologist.
It is not dermatitis. It is not eczema.
It is Paget’s disease of the breast. A rare form of breast cancer.
Having gone through breast cancer at the age of 34, this news came from out of nowhere. I just recently concluded the treatments last year after 9 years of being in tamoxifen. And now this.
Yet, as I cried my heart out. I realized that my worries are not more for myself.
I GOT THIS. I know I have what it takes to go through this.
I am in a much nourished mental state.
I am better emotionally.
I am richer in my relationships.
I have loving family and friends from different parts of the globe.
I am firmer in my resolve on how I want to live my legacy.
I am, as compared to 9 years ago, fully resourced in tending to this.
Yet the worries are there, not much for myself but for all those around me that loves me and are now worrying about me 😂
Oh what a gift, abundance and privilege in life to be in a state where when challenges happen we can say “I am resourced. I have what I need at the moment and I know where I can find support when I needed it.”
That wasn’t fully the case 9 years ago and it took me all these years to cultivate, amplify and nourish what I have now.
I am eternally grateful for the opportunities and possibilities that came my way as I started my breast cancer journey 9 years ago.
I am and will continue to be grateful in finding grace and goodness in this new journey.
I got this.
Yet, I can only do some of this on my own.
The rest is deeply held and supported by love.
AND I KNOW I GOT THIS BECAUSE MY COMMUNITY IS THERE FOR ME. They got my back.
And how I wish for all of us to find such deep blessings of support and love. That in times of suffering, you will never feel you are going through it alone.
We are stronger together and healing is a community effort.
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